Saturday, August 28, 2010

Our Adoption Story

Well, ours is about as atypical as you can get, but in a wonderful way. I found out in Dec. 2006 that I had a heart condition my whole life and never knew it. I had gone in for foot surgery and found myself at a cardiologist within the week and still with a bum foot. I was not put on any medication but was told to monitor how I felt and call if I had any problems. I didn't think it sounded like a big deal. So in January I met the love of my life and we were married in June. Now when I had gotten my divorce from John I had made a pact with myself that IF I ever got married again, my new husband would have to be ok with my kids and if he had any, his kids, being the only ones. I just didn't think any more kids were in my future. I prayed for a man that would love my children as his own. Boy did God answer that one. David is the best step father I know. But this changed something in my heart. David did not have any biological children. I saw how much joy the girls gave him and knew he deserved the chance to have all the experiences he missed out on. So we started trying to conceive. That's when I started having more and more problems with my heart. After a very bad "episode" my cardiologist made the decision that he could not recommend another pregnancy because he could not promise that my heart would not be damaged. I had to think about the kids I did have. I was heart broken and went home and headed straight to bed where I cried for the rest of the night. I can't imagine the heartache my friends who have miscarried have faced but I know how it feels to grieve for the baby that could have been. I woke up the next morning determined. David and I had discussed adoption on the very first day we had met. We were both open to the process. I knew this was the path God had for us all along. Then my mom got sicker. She had been diagnosed with Multiple Myleoma and her kidneys had failed. My father had died of cancer and my grandmother had died from complications resulting from dialysis. And now my mother was battling both. It was hard on her. She had been independent her whole life and had raised us alone since I was 2. So she decided to stop her treatments and passed away 2 weeks later on August 4, 2008. Adoption was still on our minds but I needed some time to grieve for my mother. So in December 2008, we started filling out paperwork with an agency one of my best friends had used. We finished our home study on January 31, 2009. The next day I was driving to work listening to KSBJ like I always do and heard the song While I'm Waiting by Josh Wilson. I prayed a silent prayer that I would be patient and fully trust in Him while we waited for our baby. I knew He was in control. Well, 9 days later I got a call after school from David saying that I needed to come home immediately. Being me...I wouldn't leave until he told me what was going on. He asked how soon I wanted a baby. I was dumbfounded. He explained that the agency had just called and they had a drop-in placement. A baby girl was leaving the hospital the next day and she was ours if we were ready. I raced home after letting my principal know that I might not be back for 3 months:) The agency sent us a picture on my phone. We looked at her and knew she was the one we were supposed to have. So we made a mad dash to Target to get the basics because I had gotten rid of all my baby stuff! We filled up 2 shopping carts! The next morning we left at 6 am and got to Dallas about 11ish. Then we met our baby girl. She was beautiful. We met her birthmother who is also gorgeous and her grandmother (you know it...gorgeous!). When we told them our story, Grandma began to say, "Praise the Lord, Praise the Lord!" I knew this was right. She settled into our family and has provided so many laughs, so much love, and has strenghtened our trust in God. On January 7, 2010, she became officially ours. We love her and she lights up a room like no other:) I feel God leading me down the adoption road again. I pray I can hold on to the trust in Him Kierstin gave me. More updates on that later.

Wednesday, August 25, 2010

Day 3 bentos

Simple, fast bentos for today. Momma is getting exhuasted with all this getting up early:) McKenna has salami, colby jack or polka dot cheese as she calls it, and triscuits. In her other layer she has blackberries, raspberries, a mini chocolate chip muffin and pirate booty (which she still can't say without cracking up even though I have explained it over and over). Mc really wanted to use the girl pick so we decided to bury her in the sand!
Lauren has salami, pepperoni, summer sausage, and colby jack cheese in her lower layer. She has balckberries, raspberries, kiwi, a babybel, a crayon pretzel, and two blueberry cheesecake mini muffins. She also got triscuits in a baggie. I finished packing her lunch and she got out the picks, gave me a puppy dog face, and of course I added some to her bento. Funny how she thought I was nuts a week ago...

Tuesday, August 24, 2010

Day 2 bentos

McKenna got a sheep bento. I really didn't like how this one turned out but love the Lunchbots containers! Such a good size. In her bento she had a sheep-shaped (say that 5 times fast:P) ham sandwich with foodwriter and sugar eyes details. Bean sprouts, flower carrots, flower cucumbers, and cherry tomatoes make the background . In her duo, she has a fruit salad of kiwi, clementine, and cherries in one side and a babybel and crayon pretzels in the other. Lauren came home yesterday starving, starving, starving. She has D lunch so everything is gone except the regular school lunch so she asked for a bento. She got a Sherimiya inspired ninja. You can check out her blog at Happy Little Bento. So she got a fruit salad of a clementine, blackberries, raspberried, kiwi, and strawberry with a nori wrapped egg. She also got pepperoni, salami, montery jack cheese, and a baby bell. And to top it of 2 crayon pretzels and some cherries. She was happier today (only having a small snack before dinner) and is already planning her bento for tomorrow. McKenna was starving when she got home so she got a snack bento of pirate booty, cherries, and a mini chocolate chip muffin.

First Day of School

I know that it was yesterday and I should have posted then, but...ok there is no excuse. Anyways, McKenna loves her new school and her teacher. She looked ever so cute and I actually got to walk her to class! That's actually something I have never been able to do because I have always had my own parade of parents to convince to leave my classroom, mountains of supplies to conquer, and kids to wrangle. I was not one of those parents by the way:) I did tear up leaving though...guess I have always had my own beginning of school chaos to distract me from the fact my girls are getting so big. We even drove Lauren to school too after hooking her up with some Starbucks. Can't believe this is her last year before high school. When did I get old enough to have a teenager??? So then we got home and by we I mean my sweet baby girl, my DH and myself. Due to the fact that I am chopped liver when her Daddy is around...I was soooooooo bored! I know! I thought I would have more to do. I cleaned my living room and dining room, vaccummed and dusted. And worried...I said I was not a helicopter mom but I was not entirely sure where Mc's bus stop would be. I am a planner, so this freaked me out! And it should have. They dropped her off on the street behind our house and three houses down from ours! DH was out in the area waiting but the driver said she could not add a stop on our street. I called transportation and they said they would see what they could do. (It didn't change today. UGH!) So that's how I spent my first official day as a SAHM. Didn't think there would be a learning curve...but I sure hope there is one!

Sunday, August 22, 2010

Back to School Bento

Backpacks are packed. Clothes, shoes, and hair accessories are laid out. McKenna's alarm is set for 6:30. And the lunch is packed. I started thinking about this bento weeks ago. McKenna will be starting at a new school tomorrow. And I will not be there with her all day. Not that I was one of those helicopter moms that teachers can be. I let her be independent and tried not to meddle in her business. I always have her a quick squeeze in the cafeteria last year because her class was already seated when my class came in. I am really going to miss catching a glimpse of her in the hallways or having her come to my classroom to deliver a message. So I tried to find a way to make her first day of school lunch special. Her new school mascot is a raccoon. I searched and searched for a raccoon bento I thought I could duplicate but never found one. So I cheated:) I found raccoon Littlest Pet Shop toys (which she loves at the moment) and incorporated them in her bento. She has no idea what is in store for her when she opens her lunch tomorrow! So here it is: She has grapes, raspberries, and blackberries, pretzel crayons, and a babybel in her small container. In her large container, she has carrots, cherry tomatoes, and green cauliflower with a container of green goddess for dipping and three heart sandwiches that say I *heart* U. And her newest Littlest Pet Shop critters. Oh and the directions for the crayons are available at the following blog: http://www.gourmetmomonthego.com/2008/08/runs-with-scissors-and-eats-crayons.html

Friday, August 20, 2010

Under the Sea Bento and a toddler bento

I got both of Susan Yuen's books from Amazon a week or so ago and McKenna scours them almost every night to choose her theme for the next day's bento. She has been begging for an ocean themed bento but frankly looking at samples on the internet and in my books kinda scared me. McKenna is a perfectionist and has high standards for her mother. But last night I gave in partly because I knew I had a molded egg in a fish shape in the fridge that needed to be used soon. So begins my day with her up at 7:30 and again giving me the quarter hourly updates on the time. I promised her I would start lunch at 11:30 hoping the updates would cease. So I got things rolling as soon as she marched in front of me a tapped her watch precisely at 11:30. I got everything prepared and started to put the bento together...except the fish egg was missing...Did my DH eat the fish and leave a plain boring egg in it's place. UGH! So I improvised. And here's the results. She has goldfish, cherry tomato skewers, potsickers and sauce, blue tinted egg noodles, improvised fish egg, and a few grapes.




Kierstin also got a bento toddler-style. She has shredded turkey, heart shaped grilled montery jack cheese sandwiches, goldfish and quartered grapes. BTW, she loves tzatziki! She ate most of mine from my lunch on crackers and all of her lunch too!

Thursday, August 19, 2010

It hit me today!

OMG.... I am unemployed! Seeing the exhausted faces of the teachers at McKenna's meet the teacher tonight slapped me in the face. I don't have a job! I actually looked at the job openings for CISD. Crazy, yes. Was I seriously looking, no. Just curious. McKenna was so excited all day. I got the quarterly hour update all day, then in true Mc fashion clammed up as soon as we entered the school. But she looked super cute. (See below) Jaws dropped as Lauren walked up to former teachers. She was Mc's age when I left BB Rice. No one could believe it was her. We also picked up her pageant dress today but I forgot to take pics of her in it b/c my DH's dr. appt ran 2 hours behind this morning...don't get me started. She looks beyond beautiful in it:) No bentos today as we ate out on the dress errand and for dinner too after meet the teacher. I am getting the look from Mc. Guess that's all for today and we are off on our evening walk. It's too hot to walk until after 8 pm here in TX;)

Wednesday, August 18, 2010

I have been practicing

I have a new obession...BENTO! This summer I was searching online for ways to make McKenna's lunches more exciting and healthy. This will be her first year without me at school so I just wanted a way to make things more fun for her so maybe she would miss me less. (Sounds a bit delusional, huh?) Anyways I found the answer...BENTO! I love it! She has actually eaten her lunches since we started a few weeks ago. I think I am getting better with my execution and actually look forward to making lunch! *gasp* I KNOW! This was my latest bento designed from Hawaii's Bento BOX Cookbook 2nd course. I was already in the process of throwing together something for the whole family because my DH gave me the look when I suggested sandwiches again. I can't help the fact that I love the HEB fit and fresh lunchmeat I just bought! It's delicious! Anyways I dug through the freezer and found a HEB sesame chicken prep kit and some potstickers. So when Mc found the chick musubi, I adjusted it to fit what I had already started and here's the finished project.

Here we go!

I know I am running behind already. My dear friends have been officially working for 3 days now. They have been in meetings for the beginning of the year staff development. I thought about them a lot on Monday. I even got a few messages on FB that I was missed. Honestly, I missed my friends so much but not the meetings, rhetoric, and educationese. I can't believe that I am actually doing this. I mean...I am a very independent woman for the most part and I have given up a huge amount of control here. If you know me, you know I thrive on control. You also know that there are reasons that I need to be in control of everything, especially $$$$! Now I must depend on my wonderful husband, David, to take care of that part. I know he will and I trust him competely. He is a captain with HFD and his schedule allows him to easily pick up extra hours with his department and a local VFD. I am not scared, just a bit amazed at myself. I was always the teacher who said she could never be a SAHM. I am excited about what this year will bring for me and for my family. So now comes the time to introduce them. I already mentioned my DH, David. We have been married for 3 years and he truly *rescued* my heart. We met, were engaged, and married in the span of only 6 months! (Also very uncharacteristic of me!) He is the sweetest, kindest, most amazing husband, stepfather, and father! Lauren is my 13 year old daughter from my first marriage. She is gorgeous and I am not being biased. She has never taken a bad picture in her life. She is entering the 8th grade this year and is actually excited that I will be more available to her. I mean...what teenager wants her mother more involved in her life...*tear* McKenna is my 7 year old also from my first marriage. She is tiny, spunky, and keeps us in stitches around here. She is my pageant queen and my school junkie. She is also excited about my new job title but for different reasons...she thinks there will be fresh-baked cookies everyday when she gets off the bus. LOL! And finally (for now) there is Kierstin. She is 18 months old and is the adopted daughter of David and I. She has personality like no other. She is friendly, loves music of any kind, and is toally in LOVE with her daddy. With all of this said, I guess my adventure officially starts on Monday when my big girls go off to school for the first day. Please check back often as I am sure there will be humor, frustration, tears (happy and sad) , and lots of love to be shared.